time is winding down

So my days here in the jerz are winding down for the time.. as I pack it up to the state of Pennsylvania. Not so much frightening...rather a sad separation from the familiar. Feeling impartial to it all for the most part, but it'll hit me at the weirdest times. IM LEAVING HOME.

Not something I'm afraid of, but not something I'm totally enthused over, either. It's gonna be a totally new environment with new people and new opportunities. I'll be left without the familiar comforts of home-made tea and nights of gathering around the tv to watch another episode of dog the bounty hunter with the family.. but that doesn't mean things like that are gone forever.

In fact, once I'm home from college I believe simple moments like those will be cherished and appreciated even more than they are now.

I've been told to always try new things. And I am totally for that. So here I come Messiah College.

passion

Passion: the opposite of apathy.

a day of slight self-evaluation-

I tend to be on the insane side when it comes to running.

Not that I overdo workouts, but its crucial that every day

I get my run in, or else I better give myself a darn good excuse

as to why it's not possible to run that day.

I take my camera with me everywhere. It's a love relationship

I have with an inanimate object.. and our love shall never die.

photography is transitioning from hobby to obsession.

I love my dogs and all animals with every ounce of compassion

thats bottled up inside me. Every time I see them my heart melts

into a squishy ball of fluff and the 'baby talk' flows from my lips like

I'm under some sort of spell. It may be weird, but I really love my dogs. a lot.

Its safe to assume that I love many things.. and its all made possible

because it's backed by passion. Without passion, there'd be only apathy.

and having just apathy would be totally lame.

Have stress?

Today was wonderful. Until I went to work and was

slammed with amounts of stress that (for me) topped the charts.

To the point where you feel like crawling up in a ball and crying. Maybe I need

to get a hold of my emotions, but I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed

when I got approached by one angry women who wanted me to miraculously solve

a huge issue she was having. I felt as though she was expelling every drop of

anger she was feeling onto me, and I was unable to give her the answer she was

looking for.

Sometimes I feel as though I do the same thing to God. It's like I come running

to him and spew out all my harsh feelings, and expect him to answer me

right away with a solution to my problems. Truth is, it just doesn't work that way.

What would make him wanna help me, when all I'm doing is approaching him with revulsion and impatience? God wants to help me, he wants to help all of us... but we have to go

to him in a different state of mind. Sure we may be angry or stressed over certain things.. and that is to be expected. But if we're looking for an answer, well, I think God asks for us to not worry, because he's got it covered. He wants to talk, in fact, he craves conversation with us. But it's easier to communicate when you're not in a choleric state of mind. God will listen and respond if we abide by what he asks of us. Don't expel hate towards God for your problems. Instead, talk about them with him. He's always there to listen.

Thinking Outside the Box

An entertaining little video, which I thoroughly enjoyed. So now I'm sharing it with all of you.

outside the box from joseph Pelling on Vimeo.